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Imagine my astonishment when I threw myself into the immense challenge of building my own theology and kept coming back to Dickens.
When I arrived in India, my tongue found its spiritual home; I could speak like an expert on any subject. I can't remember when I realized that no one was listening.
I missed the transformation of myself from lover to companion, from independent woman to carpool mother, from a younger to an older version of myself that I do not recognize.
MAGICIAN - The magical woman embraces her power by balancing her inner self and outer reality. She accomplishes what seems miraculous through a deep understanding of nature and our perception of reality. Often she does not seek to be the center of power but prefers to be the catalyst for the success of others. Her visionary and esoteric talents provide the opportunity to bring hopes and dreams to fruition, usually by teaching others to change their inner thoughts and attitudes. The magical woman values her freedom and time to seek the inner balance that is the source of her power.
For this birthday, I will be my own magician, holding in one hand the woman I am now, with more realistic expectations of life and myself, while gathering the fragments of the woman I was, with her spirited self-confidence, endless creativity, and infectious, easy laughter.